Am I Breaking through or breaking down?

Someone just asked this question and it spoke straight to my heart. My daily routine has been school, work and library for the longest that I barely had enough time to spend at home, and/or even if I did, it was just for a short period of time. I craved to stay home for an extended period of time for very long that this staying home during this corona crisis almost feels like God listened to what I whispered in my heart and answered my wishes.

Sun colour reminds of brighter days. Only pic I found lol.

Thankfully, I am still employed and working while practicing the necessary precautions, of course. However, the fact that I am staying indoor at home and at work for so long feels a little draining sometimes.

As thankful as I may seem and as much as I would like to say that I am, I have been missing my old routines of going to class, meeting people, going out for sushi and spending some time with my girls. I am also too used to studying and working on assignments at the library that it is now challenging to be very productive at home, or maybe it is just me making excuses. Either way, it is a learning process and I know I am figuring it out. If you are in the same boat, I hope you do too!

For anyone who is experiencing a little bit of confusion, unsettled, and disoriented, I just want to tell you that you are not alone and please reach out to your loved ones and chit chat about the things that make you happy, worried, sad, frustrated, stressed, etc. There is definitely a power in sharing and please never underestimate what a simple conversation with a family member or a friend can do to help you to stay sane during this difficult battle.

Moreover, using the time to reflect back, connect with God and myself, meditate, reorganize, taking a long bath, read, write, are some of the things that I am doing currently and I think that they are all contributing into my well being and I have a gratitude heart for it all.

However, my sleep patterns have been disrupted on the other hand and I think I have not been as productive as I wished to be. I also have just been neglecting my hair wearing head scarf, and leaving it be as I am just home most of the time. Therefore, to answer the question I asked in the beginning, I think that I have been breaking down a little while also breaking through somehow.

Now though, God willingly I choose to break through. I have learnt in many ways that fear does me worst than an actual challenge I maybe facing. That is also why I am trying three new things this week and I am very excited to learn and see what the outcomes will be.

I hope and pray to stay still in the present moment with God by my side.

I become what I think. Thus, I choose to be positive, and so I will manifest in that direction. If I may face negativity on the way, I choose to believe that it is just an obstacle I need to face to make me better and eventually help me be the best version of me.

Hopeful, prayerful, joyful, and cheerful Saron.

I hope you are dwelling just fine as well.

Thanks for reading

Till next time

Love & Blessings

Xoxo

4 Comments Add yours

  1. Winta says:

    You’re such an amazing person love! Manifest and everything you want and need will happen especially with our Lord by your sideπŸ’—
    Keep up the inspiration!

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    1. lilydope says:

      Thanks my love! Likewise :))))

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  2. Aαˆ›αŠ• ካα‰₯ αˆƒα‹²αˆ½ αŠ£α‰ α‰£ says:

    αŠ“α‹­ αˆ•αˆ›αˆα‘ αŠ£α‹­α‰΅αŒ¨αŠα‰’ αŒ₯αˆ«α‹­ !!!! life is always routing even at the higher level. dont worry and ምሡ መጻኹ ኸኣ αˆ“α‰£ αˆ“α‰£ ክα‰₯ለαŠͺ αŠ₯የፒ anywys, nice article ma girl !!!!!!

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  3. lilydope says:

    Thank You Amanishaaa… yass cannot wait for that day bro!

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